Blackout and a Full Moon

 okay, so today was whack as fuck at work. Honestly, so many things that could've gone wrong did go wrong. It was kind of amusing, in all honesty though. I was relieved to have had a good attitude toward it, since often I'll get flustered/anxious but today was just one of those days when everything is so bad its funny.

And I thought during the chaos 'haha this will be good on this blog at least.' 

Basically, we had no internet, which in turn meant we couldn't process anything on our computers, nor could we accept any method of payment aside from cash (and in 2021, does anyone even pay cash? Not in the covid era... more about that later though) and also the registers kept freezing. I had tons of stuff to do in prep for the upcoming sale but couldn't do any of that since no internet. Love, love, love. Also, not only that we had MULTIPLE blackouts. Of course this happens when we don't have our manager in, lollll.

Whenever I think I've seen it all in retail something new comes along. During the initial (and longest) blackout, we had customers wanting to try things on in the fitting rooms and waiting at the register. Bitch, tf? What can we do if the store is dark? like do you THINK we can proceed as normal? Man...

Also, everything felt quite spooky and rather reminiscent of this time last year when the big covid spike started. Mask were reintroduced throughout Victoria, and it's now once again mandatory for us to wear them indoors. The unease and tension in the area (the faintest whiff of hostility? How dare you cough. Side note; I accidentally took a huge gulp of water which went down the wrong tube and I had to leave the floor since i was honestly coughing up a lung. Also rip, because that triggered some reflux... my body is begging me for a health kick, hahah.) 

I feel bad to say this but i felt somewhat reluctant to wear a mask all day, plus it made me feel quite ill.. like light-headed and such. I remember this from last time but I suppose I kind of just got on with it. 

I'm rather curious to know what will happen since the newest covid spike has now resulted in 20ish active cases in the state. There's so many rumours, but my guess based on the last mini spike is that we might have another mini 5-day lockdown? I'm not sure how I feel about that. Fine, I guess? Time away from work is always nice but I kind of was happy enjoying life for what it was. (Also i don't want to use my annual leave in order to get paid.) I have Friday as a day off and was wanting to get out and about, or at least go for a walk in the city and ask a friend to hang out since she said she was free during the week. On a purely simplistic and selfish level, covid ruining plans is so crappy. Thankfully I was able to go ahead and have my birthday - I feel sorry for people now since there are the new restrictions which really puts a damper on any plans people may have had. Speaking of, I had a great time and I will probably post some photos here eventually. I tend to place a lot of pressure on myself to edit photos and make them look cute blah blah. I'll probably just post a pic here without an edit because quite simply, it's easier. 

I think a major thing I need to do is make things simpler for myself. Like no one cares if the photos aren't bright and pretty. Editing sucks and I shouldn't force myself to do it when it's a task I do not overly enjoy. Chantelle (my psychologist, lol) said that it will help me to do that, and also it'll stop me from being so hard on myself. Speaking of, I really need to carry on with my new cleaning schedule. i was really happy and proud of myself, for one, creating it, and two, sticking to it. Unfortunately I did not stick with it as long as I would've liked but it's definitely a good start. Also Chantelle gave me advice on how to deal with the clash in my brain against my values (tidy, nice ambiance, aesthetically pleasing) vs **** symptoms which is frankly, the opposite. She said not to be too harsh on myself when those two clash, but setting things up like the schedule will hopefully help me to keep my 'self' values.  Anyway, wow this turned rambly. I'm at the library with Jess and it's about to close, so I better dash off. ciao xx 

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i always seem to turn to blogger, and these first posts always make me feel a little giddy, ya know? It's like opening a new journal, or the first day of the school holidays. idk there is some sort of serious allure, and I for one, am here for it.

Yesterday, whilst setting this blog up and trying to find a URL and whatnot, I stumbled across this blog from 2009. I love how simple it was and how it follows 'thelazygenius' at age 27, throughout the grand total of 5 posts. I found it interesting to peer into his life at that point, and also, damn. Just how many similarities there are to life then and now. It also makes me feel weirdly connected to this stranger, like, oh, we [humans] really are more similar than we think. In a funny way I hope that maybe in 2031 or smth some other 27yo will read this and be like 'hehe she seems chill' lol. I wonder if blogger will even exist by then. I mean, it's owned by Google and that sure as hell isn't going away any time soon lol!

When you think about it - what a fabulous time capsule, so I figured I kind to want to do that over the course of my twenty-seventh year. Like hello, might not be very interesting but I figured a daily entry about whatever happens could be an interesting way to track the year? Or perhaps I'm just a sucker for nostalgia. Look, not every day is interesting, but generally speaking something relatively interesting may happen throughout the day. Maybe I'll have a nice conversation with someone, maybe I'll have a really positive day, maybe I'll go somewhere interesting, maybe I'll get lucky (ha ha - get ur head out of the gutter, ya fools). It'll be interesting to chronicle it all.

I loved blogging when I was younger, and I'm angry that I am not able to view my teenage blogs on account of deleting them out of embarrassment. Thankfully I still have my old journals from age 17 to present (whoa? like ten years of diaries? oh my!) but also I love how chill a blog is.